Bad Day~~

Today suppose to be a day to be remembered as I will be going back to school to take prize for SPM. This should be a happy day for all of us. But all this had turned into a DISASTER.

Today I went back to school at around 9.10am. I just wear a slack and a t-shirt with some words on it as I don’t have any other proper wear. I thought that as I was not wearing any jeans, I will be okay. But those blind people really can’t differentiate slack and jeans. But after I tell that what I am wearing is not jeans but slack, they have nothing to say and just say “Okay, you can go.” But once I turned and wanted to went upstairs…I was stopped again by -a---n. Can you guess what she says to me?? Oh... 我的天! She said that my t-shirt got the word “WHISKY”...and says “How come you wear a t-shirt like that in this kind of function?”

Oh, Madam...Whisky is just a normal word what... If I am wearing a shirt with the words like SEX or F--K, then you scold me la... I really can’t stand this school la... What the hell... I am so frustrated that time... Hey, come on!! Who will look so detail on my t-shirt? Then I said that my house is far away but they say I so smart in giving reasons. If I am not smart, I will not be here today. But they insisted that I go home and change my cloth. Okay, as Puan Leong advises me to go home and change, so I went home. But all my other t-shirt doesn’t suit with my slack. So after thinking for a while, I decided to wear my new skirt and long sleeve t-shirt. Oh my god, how come the teachers and those guests so troublesome ones! This time is even worse than the previous one. This time they say my skirt is short and my t-shirt is tight.

Crazy de meh?? My skirt is just 1cm above my knee. If this consider short, I really don’t know how to measure long? Hey, we’re young girls not “mak cik”! What they assume us to wear? My t-shirt is tight? I think that is not called tight but fit. Of course, when we buy t-shirt, we will choose the ones which fit us and not too loose. Is that right? I think if I really wear I loose t-shirt, they will complain that I look untidy. So I really don’t know what they want us to do?

This school no hope already ge la...Give people some reward also noisy here and there. Hey, give some face to us la, we just come back and take prize only what. Just tolerate a bit la. We’re no longer the student of this school, can’t they treat us as outsiders. Busybody only...why don’t they scold the parents who are not properly dressed?? Crazy de... I feel like crying...(my tears are falling down to my cheek) You won’t understand how I feel that time...so bad.

So disappointed that I can’t get my prize myself even though I wear so formal already. Hey, that is my office wear!! Not formal enough meh?? Haiz....really not in a good mood today!!!

~# signing out ~# kenix @ 11.40pm

i wiLL g3t m@D sOoNNnn.............

i feel so suffering...........i feel that i aredi can't breathe...........i juz seem to be "lemas" in the sea.......meaning no one can even save me ge la......last night......i feel stressed....that i nearly gone mad........i feel so tension with the exam...........i am scared that my result for the final is worse than the selaras 2................i scared i will fail all the subjects.............but whenever i say i am very scared about the exam........my frenz will say that i juz pretending.....they say that i won't get fail ge....n say that i am cheating la......but the truth is that i really really dun know a single answer for the questions asked...........tomorrow is the last paper.........est......i feel more terrible after the exam..........why? cuz i will be getting all my marks...........i can't imagine wat marks am i gonna to get.......i feel that i am really a failure la........even though i go for tuition for almost all the subjects.....but the results i get can't even higher than a person who dun even hav one tuition............juz like my bm paper 2......i hav a good teacher at school n oso a tuition teacher.......but i only managed to get 75marks out of 110marks............wat a failure.......everything i done oso does not seem right.............maybe i really need a good rest after the exam.........i should go on a vacation..............so that i can forget all my burden...........why i 24hours oso feel very sad n depressed geh.....???? why i dun enjoy my life as someone say to me that i should enjoy my school life.............!!!!! yes la......but as i am a very stubborn person....i need some time..........to think about my life............ok la........i should sleep as tommorow still got exam....trying to be optimistic................haiz.......... (^.^) happy always....meiyee

fEeLiNg so FrEE....!!!!

Wow!!! Today i feel so free la.....mayb because i aredi din have de burden...on my shoulder gua....i must promise to myself tat starting from now on.....i should study hard!!!! But today oso feel a little bit sad.....

Today morning....i feel a little sad...cuz mayb about de resignation as i quite scared tat ai nee won't approve my resign....but then after we all went back to class.....i was being scared by sam sam n wilson...as they both quarrel early in de morning.....sam sam was very "geram".....after both of them quarrel.......sam sam n i went to toilet...i ask her y she feel so angry de.....But after we went back.....i went back to my place n start to do my homework.... Later.....i heard shok yien mumbling.....feeling so weird...i look at her lo....OO....i noe y...she is so angry le...cuz ai nee "kuatkan" de fan....shok yien say tat she is very cold...so she went to slow down de fan....Today is really a sad day la.....All my classmates seem to be feeling very down...........they all look sad....chun hung feel say after quarreling...shok yien who is very angry cum over n sit wif us....i ask her y she din sit wif ai nee? but she din answer me....! wondering wat happen to my frenz...? Why they feel so sad de?? i start feeling sad for ai nee.....why shok yien din "peduli" her ke?? I oso forget liao wat happen after tat....as i remember...my est teacher ask us..whether peers or frenz are important to us or not?? i answered tat i won't need frenz so much which i mean....i won't die....although i dun hav frenz..but conclusion is i still need frenz la..i juz wondering when can i find my true frenz....close one ge la....hihi...wat am i talking about.....? seem juz like talking rubbish la....wakaka...then after finish school...we all scout hav to stay back...marching ma....but then oli i realised...tat today marching practise cancel liao....but still got meeting cuz ai nee wan 2 giv some briefing...on tis saturday ge.... sin chew carnival n de walk-a-hunt....but during tat meeting...i see shok yien feel very frusfrated.....she actually dun like to wear the scarf during the walk-a-hunt.....juz wanna say.....dun treat ur close fren like tis la....haiz.....ntg to say le!!!