Friends? 朋友？Kawan?........who are they??

Friends? Actually I seem to have forget the meaning of friends.

If I am not mistaken, friends are the close companion of we, human beings....which can share happiness and of course unhappiness and some even can share difficuties together. I even look up the online dictionary.....FRIEND means "A person other than a family member, spouse or lover whose company one enjoys and towards whom one feels affection"

Yesterday, I went out with Wai Sam.....after that we went to "yum cha" with Ai Nee and Keen Wai. And from they, I know I have been the frog under the coconut shell. I am so "grey-hearted" after knowing that my "friends" have come back from genting. But they didn't find me...or even send me a sms. I realised that all my friends had gone....gone forever and never will meet me again....I am so disappointed. Those who have been sitting behind me and beside me during school time....all are fake friends....NONE of them are TRUE friends....

OMG, I feel so scary! How can people change so easily?? Just two months.......everyone change...but maybe even me have changed...Just that I have not change too much..

FRIENDS................where are you?? Please don't forget me!!! CCY....hope you get a job soon!!

OMG....February is coming soon!!! Before that.....HAPPY CHINESE 牛 YEAR!!!! Hope I can find my TRUE and BEST FRIENDS soon....!!!

sTop aLL tHis nOnsEnSe!!!!

actually how is the feeling of being a happy person.........???? happy??? i think in my dictionary....there is no the word "happy".....i really dun understand why i always feel sad n depressed de.....??? although i noe......as i am living in this beautiful world.......i should enjoy n be happy every second of it.....but juz dun noe how to express that feeling......i juz feel sad la.........others ppl holidays..........happy...go here n there for vacations.....but for me.........i hav no where to go........i juz can hang around at my tiny little room oli........facing the four walls........i wan to be happy.......OMG.....i think abt it n i found out that i haven't be really happy this year.........this year is really a terrible year for me la....everything i hav done this year seem bad.......no matter in wat category........but xpecially de scout la.........yesterday i read back my blog..........i feel very sad.........for wat's happening to de SCOUT this year..............i really "sai sam" lo.....to SCOUT.....but i think problems will exist next year...........n many problems are cuming......but i think it is already none of my business la....but it is better dun involve me in those troubles jau ok la.............next year..........is CCY really transfer to sentosa .......but y can he be so "cekal" ke....say wan transfer jau transfer ke??? i really wanna salute him lo.............another things tat i am unhappy of is y sum of my frens is so irresponsible ke?? borrow liao ppl things dunno return back....??? ppl ask liao still dun wan return ka??? i really hate this kind of ppl ge la....so hateful la.............ok la..........this few days..........i hav insomnia again.........so tmr i wanna write a blog abt my history or mayb a blog abt me myself ge la........if i gt on9.........in the middle of the night..........hahaha!!!!

fEeLiNg so FrEE....!!!!

Wow!!! Today i feel so free la.....mayb because i aredi din have de burden...on my shoulder gua....i must promise to myself tat starting from now on.....i should study hard!!!! But today oso feel a little bit sad.....

Today morning....i feel a little sad...cuz mayb about de resignation as i quite scared tat ai nee won't approve my resign....but then after we all went back to class.....i was being scared by sam sam n wilson...as they both quarrel early in de morning.....sam sam was very "geram".....after both of them quarrel.......sam sam n i went to toilet...i ask her y she feel so angry de.....But after we went back.....i went back to my place n start to do my homework.... Later.....i heard shok yien mumbling.....feeling so weird...i look at her lo....OO....i noe y...she is so angry le...cuz ai nee "kuatkan" de fan....shok yien say tat she is very cold...so she went to slow down de fan....Today is really a sad day la.....All my classmates seem to be feeling very down...........they all look sad....chun hung feel say after quarreling...shok yien who is very angry cum over n sit wif us....i ask her y she din sit wif ai nee? but she din answer me....! wondering wat happen to my frenz...? Why they feel so sad de?? i start feeling sad for ai nee.....why shok yien din "peduli" her ke?? I oso forget liao wat happen after tat....as i remember...my est teacher ask us..whether peers or frenz are important to us or not?? i answered tat i won't need frenz so much which i mean....i won't die....although i dun hav frenz..but conclusion is i still need frenz la..i juz wondering when can i find my true frenz....close one ge la....hihi...wat am i talking about.....? seem juz like talking rubbish la....wakaka...then after finish school...we all scout hav to stay back...marching ma....but then oli i realised...tat today marching practise cancel liao....but still got meeting cuz ai nee wan 2 giv some briefing...on tis saturday ge.... sin chew carnival n de walk-a-hunt....but during tat meeting...i see shok yien feel very frusfrated.....she actually dun like to wear the scarf during the walk-a-hunt.....juz wanna say.....dun treat ur close fren like tis la....haiz.....ntg to say le!!!