我回來了 :(

突然心血來潮想寫blog。

心情好差，好煩，好擔心，好內疚。

好想用寫blog嚟發泄我geh心情。

今天早上考試，做咗好似冇做咁樣。好煩吖，好擔心會fail。我唔想我父母對我失望。

心覺得而家的生活完全不是人的生活，it’s more like a life of a soldier having a war.

係唔係人越大就會有更多更多geh 煩惱，更多憂慮。點解？Why？Why we have to undergo all these kind of things in life.

更多geh stress 令到我就嚟瘋啦。

太多考驗啦，我接受唔到囉。

希望我的身體同心理能撐到11號啦。

希望神會救我啦。amen <3

Judgement Day

Today is a very important day for me...my JUDGEMENT DAY.

But to my surprise, I'm not as nervous as I think. Because of yesterday I slept very late, I only woke up around 10AM today. Once I opened my Facebook, many of them already post that results released already.

Though I'm not nervous, but I'm not dare enough to open my Intranet myself. I'd waited for about 10 minutes before I dare to open up the TARC website. Once I clicked on Intranet and key in my ID and PW, I quickly shift to my Facebook page (waiting for the page to load). Once I opened back that page, I was so SURPRISE. I get a B- for my Financial Accounting. Though it was not the best result, but I really grateful that I didn't fail this subject. Thanks God for it. The other four subjects are quite GOOD. Overall, I'm quite satisfy with my results though my CGPA had dropped a lot. ==

After checking my results, I cooked myself the last packet of the Korean Mee that Daddy bought and made myself a cup of HOT Milo.



my lunch

Just now I followed my Mom to Herbalife to weigh my weight. Hmm, I know my results sure are all very bad ge la. My metabolism age is 29, which is 10 years older than my actual age. This doesn't sound good 囉. Then, my Mom's coach asked my whether I get enough sleep and drink enough water or not. 哈哈~~ My answer is definitely NO 囉. Then, she also said that one's 心情 is also very important. A happy person will have a better health than a person who always think negatively.

I'm always a negative thinker. Huh~~ how should I change? How to become a HAPPIER person. 死得啦. Want to be happy also don't know? Maybe I really shouldn't think too much la. I should become easy come and easy go. Everything happens is already 注定. Talk 就easy la...but when it comes to action 就 very difficult 囉.

Hmm...lately I don't why suddenly my interest to learn guitar is back. But I'm not sure whether I really want to learn or just to play for fun only. Do you think guitar is suitable for me? Will it be difficult to learn at my age where all my fingers are very robotic now? It is difficult to learn the music notes?? Huh~~ I want to learn something also so 麻煩.

Should I learn guitar???

Can I PASSED???

Hmm~~, in about 24 hours, my result for the last semester will be released out.

Though I have my worst prediction which is getting a YELLOW form for the FA and losing my SCHOLARSHIP. I hope this will NEVER happened!!

I'm some sort of MAD and almost become volcanoes that are going to burst out when those lecturers keep on telling us that the passing percentage of students is only 50% and students are killed in Section A and cash flows statements.

喂, no need you all lecturers told, we also know that we are getting killed 啦. Still want to 在我們的傷口撒鹽. Can't they understand our feelings of getting YELLOW forms?

I really do not dare to open my Intranet tomorrow. I really really scared that I will fail the subject. Oh my god, I never feel as nervous and worry as now. I really hope that things can move faster a bit. Especially moment like tomorrow. Hate to face it but life is really cruel.
We always need to face the things that we don't like and what we want will seldom occur.
I hope this time MIRACLE can happen on me. Crossing my fingers and hope that I can see some miracle tomorrow morning.

PS: Mr. Wong is telling us to read more Business News. I think I should start my practice of reading business news from The Star 囉．我唔想fail這個subject啊. Hmm, I'm gonna stop here for blogger and go to have a glance at the business news ^.^

Holidays = Flu

Finally, I am free to post a blog.
As always, I have a very very sensitive nose.
Since I am having my semester break, I will be busy cleaning up my room.

Thus, I sneezed for the whole week while I tidy up my room.
That's so pity. Now, holidays still left one more week.
But I will be having my CS tasks on the coming Thursday, that is right after my 中秋节.

After this semester break, I am sure my life is going to be more more tough.
Why? Cause the coming semester subjects are way too tough.
Moreover, there is one subject which is having 3 hours lecture. Hope that the lecturer is fun enough to keep me alert.

After this semester break also, I will be having my judgement day, which is the day the result is released. I still wished that my result won't be so terrible.

I think I should go to bed, tomorrow still need to go Ipoh. Good Night ^^

Final exam? Not yet ended??

After spending the whole night creating and designing my new blog, I discovered that I have forgotten that I am still in exam week. But don't know why in this semester (Y2S1), I lose my mood of studying. Is it because of the subjects are tough or I am being to lazy??

I'm always in dilemma. I don't know what am I expecting from? Maybe I always expect that Lord will help or guide me in everything I do. But after today FA exam, I know that I am too PROUD of myself. I always too CONFIDENT of myself. I am too EGO. That's why my whole exam paper for today(yesterday) also can't do. I really hate myself very much.

Both the taxation and FA paper, I also done it very badly...but I'm still not scared yet. I still have a lot of mood to do things that are not important at all. Not related to my Final at all.

I know I am wrong and now I'm trying to change. Although it's a bit late, it is better late then never 嗎~~~. I think enough of rubbishing, I want to go to bed 啦. Good Night and 早晨 (In the process of learning to write in cantonese chinese). Later have to start studying for the last paper "ENTREPRENEURSHIP".

feeling guilty...

Hmm... finally here it comes!
Do you know what I mean?? The time that I have been waiting for... exam's moments!!!

Exam is something that I am longing for (haha...seem like I love exam) but I do not mean that I love exam. What I mean is after exam, I'll be having a break. But of course...this semester, I don't have any break as I'll have my 下乡activities which I seriously not so prefer.
I can't understand why their time is so flexible. Once they call for meeting, everyone must present. Actually I do understand that they also need to have exam...but as a scholarship holder...I am not going to do it with them this time... So sorry but I am really not feeling so well...

Omg...my "Hubungan Etnik" will be ruined. As my coursework for this subject is only 71/100 and the coursework carry 60% from the final... I can't get A for this stupid subject ge lo...
Feeling so nervous that I'll lost my scholarship...


signing out by boring kenix @ 5.20pm (我爱你）haha!!

i wiLL g3t m@D sOoNNnn.............

i feel so suffering...........i feel that i aredi can't breathe...........i juz seem to be "lemas" in the sea.......meaning no one can even save me ge la......last night......i feel stressed....that i nearly gone mad........i feel so tension with the exam...........i am scared that my result for the final is worse than the selaras 2................i scared i will fail all the subjects.............but whenever i say i am very scared about the exam........my frenz will say that i juz pretending.....they say that i won't get fail ge....n say that i am cheating la......but the truth is that i really really dun know a single answer for the questions asked...........tomorrow is the last paper.........est......i feel more terrible after the exam..........why? cuz i will be getting all my marks...........i can't imagine wat marks am i gonna to get.......i feel that i am really a failure la........even though i go for tuition for almost all the subjects.....but the results i get can't even higher than a person who dun even hav one tuition............juz like my bm paper 2......i hav a good teacher at school n oso a tuition teacher.......but i only managed to get 75marks out of 110marks............wat a failure.......everything i done oso does not seem right.............maybe i really need a good rest after the exam.........i should go on a vacation..............so that i can forget all my burden...........why i 24hours oso feel very sad n depressed geh.....???? why i dun enjoy my life as someone say to me that i should enjoy my school life.............!!!!! yes la......but as i am a very stubborn person....i need some time..........to think about my life............ok la........i should sleep as tommorow still got exam....trying to be optimistic................haiz.......... (^.^) happy always....meiyee

eXam wEeK......

Oo......at last the final exam starts.............n today is the third day of the exam...............so sian la......i HATE EXAM.........!!!! today my history paper really sucks la...............when all the questions.....i oso dun noe.........die lo me..............later so more bad when i ans the moral paper..............juz the same.......SUCK.............oh i so tension la.........when next week the exam...........all oso seem to be very tough for me.............xpecially the bio........n physics.............oMG.................exam faster end la.....i already can't stand such a pressure...........this few days i.....oso dun hav a gud sleep as i went to bed at 4 sumthing........then wake up at 6.30..............so tired and suffering la...............i hope that i din do things at the eleventh-hour.............thinking about my english paper.............i think my essay will fail la.............as i done many mistake at my essay.................sian la...........b4 i forgot..........today is my fren.....pei shin birthday.............wish her will hav a happy day today la.....n oso gud luck for her exam.................HAPPY BIRTHDAY.........pei shin.............today PSS hav held the "mesyuarat agung"..............n the ajk for next year hav been "diumumkan".............n i am the pengerusi of the PSS...................so happy la.....of course..............but i scared i can't do it la..............cuz that's a quite big responsibility............i hope i can do my best la.....as the pengerusi for the PSS next year...........ok la...........it's quite late lo...........n i am going to do my revision as tomorrow hav maths exam la..............must do sum preparations.............