Holidays = Flu

Finally, I am free to post a blog.
As always, I have a very very sensitive nose.
Since I am having my semester break, I will be busy cleaning up my room.

Thus, I sneezed for the whole week while I tidy up my room.
That's so pity. Now, holidays still left one more week.
But I will be having my CS tasks on the coming Thursday, that is right after my 中秋节.

After this semester break, I am sure my life is going to be more more tough.
Why? Cause the coming semester subjects are way too tough.
Moreover, there is one subject which is having 3 hours lecture. Hope that the lecturer is fun enough to keep me alert.

After this semester break also, I will be having my judgement day, which is the day the result is released. I still wished that my result won't be so terrible.

I think I should go to bed, tomorrow still need to go Ipoh. Good Night ^^

擔心

Huh...
I felt very worried now. Though now the exam was over, I still felt moody for what have I done (which I means all the mistakes that I done during the exam period).

I felt so guilty that I didn't try my very best for this semester and I think I'll be getting a tremendously bad results in this semester that will affect my overall CGPA. I don't want my CGPA to drop so badly.

But all these all too late to be regretted. As whether I passed or not, it will be depending on the fate and my answers. I just hope badly that I can maintain my scholarship. I really can't afford to lose it. I don't want to make my Mom disappointed. I don't want her to spend so much money on my studies. Even though I'm now still using her money for my studies. Just now, she said, "Luckily she (who is me) doesn't use so much of my money on studies." But I really scared....damn scared that I need her to spend more money on me.

If I really can pass all my subjects for this semester, I'll promise I'll be working extra extra hard for my coming semester. I will not play so much of Facebook and Goo so muchh.
Just keep on praying to pass all my subjects. May Lord grants me and my DAC friends with good results. Amen.

我的烦恼。。。终于解决了!! Horray

This few days I really feel depressed and frustrated... always form group with that three people only...want to make new friends also cannot... As I already know, once I choose the wrong gang of people...then "hancurlah" my life!!! My HE assignment only get 23 marks out of 30 marks... and the more worse in my HE test... Haha...as I already know...sure "hancur" one... I get 22 out of 40. Teruknya!! I also have calculated on my coursework marks for HE...and if not wrong, I need to do very well in the Exam in order to get a "A" which I think it is IMPOSSIBLE!!! Haha...and yesterday, I just done my HE presentation...hmm, actually not too satisfied with the marks but...just accepted it lo....what to do??

I always thinking about the same thing throughout the week... SHOULD I CONTINUE MYSELF IN CS??? Huh, as I am not good in my Chinese... I feel that myself very useless and I started to feel "自卑" as I seemed can't contribute anything to the society and I keep on asking on my senior...what sports is the most easy to get the 2 credit hours?? I keep on finding ways to "escape" from CS. But by the way, I really like CS very much. Just because I can't speak fluently in Chinese, sometimes I just dare not voice up my opinions... as I don't how to tell some words in Mandarin. Haiz...what to do?? Who ask me don't know Chinese??

I keep on telling myself that I can do it. But eventually I can't do anything. I keep on struggling on what decision should I make.... I even asked my best friends' advice. Two of them ask me to quit as it seemed to be a burden to me... but my dear, Pei Shin give me opinion to me that I should give a try and try to manage both my study and co-q.... But the things I most worry about is that I scared I will lose my scholarship... I scared I can't do well in my study if I enter CS as this society is a damn busy society in the entire college... Haha!!! I also don't understand why I will enter this society at first...

Haha...today feel extremely sad...and my friends keep on asking me why I look like a corpse and walk like a corpse!! Sure like a corpse la...a lot of tension ma!! Tests, assignments, exam and CS!!! I feel that I can't manage all of them at the same time...and this week I really cried a lot. What to do... except release all my sadness through the tears that rolling down to my cheeks?? I even think of "放弃" but I really cannot give up this opportunity as I really lucky to be the chosen one...haha!! I even think of not attending the meeting for today but... I keep on telling myself to keep on trying!! I struggle for a long time and I finally end up with a conclusion which is continue myself in CS.

My mom told me that if I already worked hard...if the scholarship is really forgone, then also nothing can be done except that I need to pay my own money lol...but I think I will still got some discount geh...haha!! Staff rate!! So, what Kenix should do is try my best to get a "A" for every unit but I really know that it is a "MISSION IMPOSSIBLE"... so just try my best not to fail a single unit lo...then I think this mission, I can still handle geh!!! Tomorrow got QS test arr... very scare but I just can do one thing which is try my best... just try to pass!!!

Haha...tomorrow night is the O'Night but I won't go as a student but as a staff's daughter and thus I don't need to very dinner dress...HAHA!!! Kenix...gambateh and 下乡 gambateh!! Hope that I can really manage both of them la... GOD BLESS!!! Good night!!! Wakaka...


confusing kenix signing out @ 11.58pm

12 MARCH 2009

12/3/09. This date represents a very important day in my life. One week before my birthday and also the date that I will be getting my SPM result. Hmm... a bit nervous!!! I don't know what will I get for my result...but anyway I think I already give out my BEST to do my SPM last year... HUH!!! Worrying if my result is not good enough...how am I going to apply for any scholarship... my aim is just simple... I just want to get at least 9As...So that I can at least get 100% waiver from KTAR... but.....

I really don't have any ideas on what result will I get... no confident at all....
Anyway....just hope for the best!!!
I believe tomorrow will be a great day!!!... I hope so............

~# signing out ~# kenix @ 11.10pm

paper....where are you???

OMG!!! Help! Help me, please!!!!
Today I go to laminate some paper...when I first started laminate, I put in one piece of paper into that machine...but it never...NEVER come out...!!!!

What had happened???? As I am blur blur geh, I asked for help lo..., when they checked and they said nothing left inside that machine....aiyo!!!! How can like this geh..!!!!!!!! My document really stucked inside but they said “No...nothing inside!!”

Now I really hope that nothing is inside that machine....cause if that machine spoiled. I am not able to pay for it....haven't get my salary yet....

But if that piece of paper is not left inside then.....where have it gone??? Oh....working is so troublesome la....!!! I wished I could go back to school.....enjoying life everyday....Why must we grown up???? Why everything can't be the same forever????

But I pray to God that they will not find that paper forever..........or just can find after I end my contract here.....which I mean after March....

nErVoUs.....

I am so nervous and scared nowadays.....xpecially when i saw those form 5 de students are already having their trial.......OMG juz one more year to go......n me myself will be sitting for the spm trial....SPM.....time really past very fast......juz a blink of eyes.........n i already in form 4 this year........juz now i read ah ling the comment......she said that the trial paper is very difficult.....xpecially de sj......actually that day...hui xin oso got told me tat de sj paper 2 is damn difficult ke wo........they so "keng" oso said the questions are difficult.....Ooo.... then wat will happen to me if i am the one who is taking the exam....me sure get 9......i really dun understand why i am so lazy this year.......i always plan to do all my homeworks.....during holidays.....but the results usually is that i will juz do when date due.......What had happen to me??? Why can't i juz concentrate at my studies???? I must control myself.....i can't let the laziness control me....i must overcome my problems..........i suppose to study right now.......but juz can't control myself so juz on9 lo......but i must plan my time wisely......cuz i oso need some times to relax my mind........study hard....meiyee........i know that i can do it......add oil meiyee!!!!!