sHouLd i g!v hEr de LettEr.......???

Oo.....i am so frusfrated now......I am thinking whether i should really giv her that letter.... yesterday before....i sleep.....i hav aredi made up my mind tat is i would like to resign from the post that i am having in the scout......i hav think for a very long time n finally i came up with de letter.......but i am scared of many things....example.....i scared that de pemimpin won't let me go for exam......n oso gathering.....if like tis for wat i attend the scout....right??? Why i can't juz do it according to my feelings....but i really scared i will regret.....la...and i oso dun noe....wat is the most suitable time for me to resign......n if i resign....dun i hav to wait for 3 months notice....i hope there is no necessity la.....lazy la.....wanna to be free as soon as possible....


today i really feel no mood after recess.....because i din see "her" around.....where hav "she" been......wanna see "her" oso cannot la.....haiz....... furthermore.....i am very frusfrated about de color of our class t-shirt.....why ppl like to choose tis n tat de??? We hav discuss for quite a long time n finally today....we hav the conclusion....the color that we choose are black n apple green...ok la...i quite like tat color de....!!! Really thanks to my son....man heng la....he see me so "fan" n he ask me wat's wrong with me.....n i tell him that i am quite "fan" wif the color of de t-shirt.....n finally he help me to ask de class to decide de color.........

once again i miss my add maths tuition.....but never mind....i will go on friday...n i think i will go to the sunday class for my account......cuz saturday...surely not free de .....cuz got walk-a-hunt.......why my time so packed de......?? wat a tiring life.....i hav!!!! Tis cuming holiday.....i wanna go sumwhere else.........to relax......hope can go.....without any "halangan" le..........
ok la...........i oso dun noe wat to say le.............but conclusion of today is ............i am very "bimbang abt her" la.........hihihihihi...dun noe wat i write la..........???!!!!

wHat iS hApPeNing tO mysELf.....

My mood is......DOWN!!!

OMG.....! What I have been doing in this half of the year? I really have no idea about those activities that I have done as if I have lost all my memories....
I know that I cannot keep on my attitudes like that cause I am already in form 4.....next year I will be having my SPM
BUT what can I do??? Who can come and help me....guide me to the correct path....huh!!!
Why all my friends seem to be so free as they even got time to go here and there....but for me....it is better for me hanging at home.....and sitting in front of the computer just like now......
Now already left one day and August is coming....but I seem that I don't know what I have been studying all the times.....
Today.....when I get back my Bio's exam paper......once again.....disappointed......cause I FAIL my Bio
That moment only I realised that I don't know what have been taught by teacher during my Biology period.....
Furthermore....I feel that I am very LAZY this year......cause I always run away from my tuition class....and even though I attend for tuition...I surely will sleep during lecture....
Why I always feel so tired de.....? Sometimes....I even think.....should I sacrifice my scout and others co-curiculum stuff and pay fully attention to my studies.....?
I really don't know......
Okay la....as now is already very late....I think I should go to bed lolz......
meiyee.................gambateh!!!!!!!!!!!