我的心好痛．．．點解嘢？

Now is already 2.16am, but I still can't sleep.

Just now while I'm lying on the bed, I think about many things. I think about 下鄉D事情. I had a heartache for not be able to 回鄉. I also think about the sms that SJ send to me. She said that our group will never be together. I feel so sad about what she meant. Does they angry with me because I didn't 回鄉 with them and go steamboat with them? 我真係好sad吖.

我的頭也覺得很痛吖. 好辛苦吖~~ (I want to cry already...T^T)
Why life is so tough? Now even want to sleep also so DIFFICULT...
I really cannot stand all these anymore. Can someone please help me end all these suffers?
I really want to get a good sleep before I start my class later on at 9AM. Should I eat some FLU medicine to help me to get sleep? I think I really need it.

Hmm...I am going to take my medicine and eat now. Hope I can sleep 啦. Once again... GOOD NIGHT. Oops, I don't think now is Good Night... now should be GOOD SLEEP.

PS: I hope you guys won't mad at me. I'm feeling more sick now~~

Last day of the Holidays

Today is the last day of my semester break. Tomorrow need to get back to college again.

Huh~~ no more holidays already. Busy life is going to start. Life is getting tougher and tougher. Hope that I can survive till the end.

Recently, I had done something wrong and I'm feeling a bit guilty right now.

So sorry to all my 下鄉 friends. So sorry that I can't accomplish the mission with you all. So sorry. =(
Other than that, I feel more sorry to my 宣傳股. I really want to go Ipoh with you all. But so sorry, since I'm getting sick. I don't feel like going anywhere. So sorry. Hope you guys can understand me and forgive me.

I think tonight I should go to bed earlier so that I can wake up on time tomorrow morning. I think there's nothing much that I want to share here. I want to stop here. Goo Night!!

Friends gathering

Just now, I'm having a gathering with all my friends at Maha Maju.
It's really been a long time that I didn't meet all of them.
I even saw my primary classmates but I didn't recognise their faces. (Afiq and Azmir)

All of them are having a great study life now...I'm really happy for them.
Hope I can join them at KL soon. Looking forward for this.
Enjoy listening about the latest news of you all.

Though some didn't join the gathering, hope some days we can meet up again. Really miss you guys.

Wish all my friends all the best in their life. Take care, my friends.

Learn to Fly

Yesterday, I had done some quizes in Facebook. One of them is about " What is the theme song in your life?" Being curious of it, I had done the quiz and the result of the theme song of my life is "Learn to Fly" by Foo Fighters. As I never heard of this song before, I try to search for this song at 酷我音乐, my music software application. Despite finding this song from the above singer, I found "Learn to Fly" by A1. After listening to this song and seeing the lyrics of the song, I think this song really tell out my feelings. I think this song is really suitable to be my theme song although this song is actually not the result of the quiz.

Let me share the lyrics with you all:

When you feel the dream is over

Feel the world is on your shoulders

And you lost the strength to carry on

Even though the walls may crumble

And you find you always stumble through

Remember never to surrender to the dark

Cause if you turn another page

You will see that's not the way

The story has to end

And if you need to find a way back

Feel you're on the wrong track

Give it time, you'll learn to fly

Tomorrow is a new day

And you will find your own way

You'll be stronger with each day that you cry

Then you'll learn to fly

In your head, so many questions

The truth is your possession

The answer lies within your heart (within your heart)

You will see the doors are open

If you only dare to hope

And you will find a way to fight

The fears that kept you down

Cause if you turn another page

You will see that's not the way

The story has to end

And if you need to find a way back

Feel you're on the wrong track

Give it time, you'll learn to fly

Tomorrow is a new day

And you will find your own way

You'll be stronger with each day that you cry

Then you'll learn to fly

Looking at your situation

There's so much you can do

Now's the time to make your stand

This is just an observation

In the end it's up to you

The future's in your hands

And if you need to find a way back

Feel you're on the wrong track

Give it time, you'll learn to fly

Tomorrow is a new day

And you will find your own way

You'll be stronger with each day that you cry

Then you'll learn to fly

Give it time

Then you'll learn to fly

Hmm, I like this song so much. Later I may post this song to my blog to let you all listen to it.

Today my friend, Chun Hung had come back from Singapore. Feels so glad that he haven't forget us. Just now he just came to my house and we have many chit-chatting. Yoke Yin will be back on 19th June. Hope can see them all soon.

Congratulation to Yugathes as he will be further his studies at Australia after finished the SAM from Taylor. Wish him all the best.

Guys, friendship is always forever!! Hope you guys all won't forget me after graduate next time.

The End of O' Week

This morning is our Talent Time performances...

I am extremely nervous this morning and I seemed to have forgotten all the dancing steps... OMG lol!!! But finally we have successfully performed the dance. Even though I have forgotten some dance steps in the middle of the performance.... Haiz!!! No talent really no talent.

All the other performance from other group is really entertained. Hmm, today is the most entertain day.... Huh, although our group doesn't win any prizes but I think no problem la as long as we feel happy!!!

This is the picture of all the members of Group 13... (some of them have gone back hometown ady)

And this is the picture of our group flag (nice mou?)

signing out @ 10.30pm by kenix

finally...

Huh!!! After two and a half months working at UTAR, I finally ended my contract yesterday which was earlier than my actual ones. But anyway...happy to be free again. Yeah...I can start planning what to do in the coming 3 weeks. Hmm... want to go for vacation but don't know whether success or not. Normally won't success one... Then I wish to dye my hair and straighten it too. Planning to do many things but my budget is not enough...Haiz!!! Still haven't get my salary yet. But one plan must be on...the plan to go Ipoh to buy my working shirt and shoes. Oh...still have to work in April but I be working at KTAR this time.

Yesterday have a lot of fun. Go out for a drink at Maha Maju with Lik Wak and others. Hmm...looks like Lik Wak was the earliest one who go study in our class. He'll be go to LimKokWing UC to study Interior Design. Hope he will be fine there...

As for me is just like what I had planned earlier which is going to KTAR to study Accounting. Hope this is the correct way for my future. Still have a bit worry about it. Aiyo...don't know what to write liao?? Feeling a bit sleepy... I think I should take a nap now. Sayonara...see you again my blog...XD


~# signing out ~+ kenix@ 10.17am

Friends? 朋友？Kawan?........who are they??

Friends? Actually I seem to have forget the meaning of friends.

If I am not mistaken, friends are the close companion of we, human beings....which can share happiness and of course unhappiness and some even can share difficuties together. I even look up the online dictionary.....FRIEND means "A person other than a family member, spouse or lover whose company one enjoys and towards whom one feels affection"

Yesterday, I went out with Wai Sam.....after that we went to "yum cha" with Ai Nee and Keen Wai. And from they, I know I have been the frog under the coconut shell. I am so "grey-hearted" after knowing that my "friends" have come back from genting. But they didn't find me...or even send me a sms. I realised that all my friends had gone....gone forever and never will meet me again....I am so disappointed. Those who have been sitting behind me and beside me during school time....all are fake friends....NONE of them are TRUE friends....

OMG, I feel so scary! How can people change so easily?? Just two months.......everyone change...but maybe even me have changed...Just that I have not change too much..

FRIENDS................where are you?? Please don't forget me!!! CCY....hope you get a job soon!!

OMG....February is coming soon!!! Before that.....HAPPY CHINESE 牛 YEAR!!!! Hope I can find my TRUE and BEST FRIENDS soon....!!!

learning something new....

Oh my gosh....Today I wake up very early the morning .......but then after doing some account exercise.....I feel so sleepy that I go to sleep until 2.15pm like that cause of my message alert and also a call from my mum.....OOooooo.........it's raining heavily out there so today I can't go learn my ----- lu......waste my time la....then what I do??? Of cos as usual....on9 lolz......then play some games.....then continue my account exercise....and of cos listen to the music....then Yinky sms.....saying that the Uncle will give the t-shirt to them at my house......oh..that's funny.....The t-shirt, not me in charge de.....why want to go to my house and collect le.....hehe

Then, I get my chess club t-shirt....oh that's nice la....At night we go to the church for some music class.......oh man!!! I am really stupid at playing music instruments la.....I learn to play drum today but my whole body seem to have transfer into a robotic body......you know what I mean......my hands and legs are as stiff as stone!!!!! And I can't even control them.... I think I really stupid la.....wonder can I be better next time....??? Hopefully can la......hehe

a happy day

Huh...!!!
Today I am so happy that I meet her again since she left school last two years ago.
I really kind of miss her and her gang...

Happy that she still can recognise me wor... Just now saw her at Fun Fair with her boyfriend. ^^

I saw Hing Wai too at there.

Hope to see her again which I means Chai Teng. Wonder what's she going now? Studying or working??

the eNd of 2007

Finally 2007 is almost gonna to over...
This year have been a year full of happiness and also bitterness. No matter sweet or bitter those memories, it has over but the memories will always fresh in my mind.

I really dun know what's gonna to happen in this coming new year, 2008.....but I hope that everything that happen in this year will never never occur again...which I mean the unhappy event.I really hope next year will be the year that full of only happiness. Just sweet memories between my friends cause next year will be my last year in secondary school.

I hope next year I won't always get angry with my friends n finally "fan min" with them. Cause I really regret for what I have done.....but I am that kind of person who cannot "ying tei wai" so no matter what happen I won't say sorry.......ok la...I don't want to mention these unhappy things again.

The starting of the year should start with happy de things.
Next year......will be the year that lead me to my path of life, so I will be struggle very hard for my SPM next year.......haha....(looks like i will be very hard-working) Haha =D

10......9......8......7......6......5......4......3......2......1..............HAPPY NEW
YEAR!!!!!!

hOLidaYs aRe bOriNg.....

Oo.....i juz cum back from penang at 10pm juz now......at last i am free to post a blog but of course i am free now........HOLIDAYS ma........but my holidays seem to be quite dull n bored la.....so sian la......holidays......those s2pid the frens oso din accompany me to this trip.......make me feel so sian...........but watever la.........OO.....i hav a terrible day in penang la.........i hav never taste such an untasty food b4 in penang......thus i always thought that penang food is the best......but this time during the trip....all those food that i eat.....no matter chay kuay teow, prawn noodles......n many many more.....are not tasty la...........thus in the trip, i lost all my appetite la......moreover....i am not feeling so well too.....always feel wanted to vomit.....flu......n cough like hell.....n i oso feel a bit dizzy during the time.....we walked around the heritage XXX........dun noe why every times....i visit those temples....i oso feel dizzy ke la............n all of us (FORM 4) oso hav stomachache.........dun noe wat hav we eat until all of us oso stomachache..........terrible....TERRIBLE la.......after all the visit to temples..........n all those historical building.....kek lok si.....we travel to the beach.............because of my laziness..........i dun wan to put off my shoes..thus i din play at the water....juz walking beside the beach observing our group playing so "shuang".........in the bus.....all the boys are making a lot of noise.........screaming.....yelling and watever la.........and at last we reach kampar at abt 10pm lo.........i quickly switch on my computer once i reach home.....after i take my comfortable bath............i mei on9 until now lo...............gt a chance chatting with ah jie.........she say she will bring me to penang so that i can taste those delicious food that i hav eaten 2 years ago (if not mistaken) when ah jie is working at penang.......oo.....i hope i can go there n eat TASTY food but not those UNTASTY food anymore..........getting crazy ge la......later when i go kerian campfire..............hope that i ll hav a gud time at there..........!!!!!

mY hAiR.......!!!!

unbelievable......................i can't believe that i will cut my hair until so short...........i feel so "tak sampai hati" la.............wonder that hair suit me or not..............???? today is sam sam birthday.....we go to LF n celebrate with her...........have a lotz of fun..........although her birthday juz past.....but i oso wanna wish her happy birthday..........n may her wish cum true.............!!!! ok la....ntg to write la.....so i juz stop here la.....i wanna go sleep lu......

eXam wEeK......

Oo......at last the final exam starts.............n today is the third day of the exam...............so sian la......i HATE EXAM.........!!!! today my history paper really sucks la...............when all the questions.....i oso dun noe.........die lo me..............later so more bad when i ans the moral paper..............juz the same.......SUCK.............oh i so tension la.........when next week the exam...........all oso seem to be very tough for me.............xpecially the bio........n physics.............oMG.................exam faster end la.....i already can't stand such a pressure...........this few days i.....oso dun hav a gud sleep as i went to bed at 4 sumthing........then wake up at 6.30..............so tired and suffering la...............i hope that i din do things at the eleventh-hour.............thinking about my english paper.............i think my essay will fail la.............as i done many mistake at my essay.................sian la...........b4 i forgot..........today is my fren.....pei shin birthday.............wish her will hav a happy day today la.....n oso gud luck for her exam.................HAPPY BIRTHDAY.........pei shin.............today PSS hav held the "mesyuarat agung"..............n the ajk for next year hav been "diumumkan".............n i am the pengerusi of the PSS...................so happy la.....of course..............but i scared i can't do it la..............cuz that's a quite big responsibility............i hope i can do my best la.....as the pengerusi for the PSS next year...........ok la...........it's quite late lo...........n i am going to do my revision as tomorrow hav maths exam la..............must do sum preparations.............

fRieNds.........

oUr faitH aNd oUr fRieNdsHiP aRe nOt sHattEreD bY oNe biG aCt, bUt bY maNy sMaLL nEgLecTs...friends..........our friendship really ruined by those small matters.......actually wat's the problems.......why each year i must quarrel with one of my frenz ge........??? the problems are with me or at my frenz le.....??? but i think most of it.....the problems is surely with me ge la.....juz like last year..........bcuz of some small matters.........i quarrel with swet yee...n we din talk for 1 year...........wat a waste...........ho? n this year...........once again quarrel with that guy...............?? u think when am i gonna to fren back with him le.??? but that guy......i every year oso quarrel with him ge la.......cuz u know his attitude la.........8 ma, rite...........sometimes.......he juz will making fun of u without notice that that he is actually irritates others............juz like this time......mayb he is juz wanna play play........but without notice........he actually making me angry la.........so geram la.....OO.........juz chatting with cheong yew...........i ask him whether he is really wanna transfer to sentosa.....he say yes.....but he scared that the school dun let me......to go....if he really cum to sentosa.......then good lo.....can hav a frenz to chat with...........wakaka..........then can bully him juz like in primary school..........haha miss those times.........sweet memory la.............* ah ling...i so gud le........u say wanna read my blog..then i write one for u to read lo....wakaka

f!naLLy...

Oo.....at last i know my characteristics are.......today i suddenly wanted to know how my friends think abt me....so i asked my "lion" abt my characteristics....oo...i am so glad that she tell me the truth....finally i know that i am a very emotional person.....especially when i am doing my homework.....yes...i am totally agree with her......cuz i really will get mad when someone disturb me while i am doing my account, add maths and even chemistry....but i will try my best not to be so emotional next time......furthermore...she oso said that i am very stubborn......cuz she say once i wanna resign.....i won't change my mind wo.....but i am not sure whether....i am stubborn or maybe "cekal hati"......she oso got mention that i talk very loudly in class.....yes lo....i think i really quite noisy in class................OO....finally i know my bad characteristics.........i promise myself..........i will change my attitude........from now onwards.....i promise myself.......i will start my revision.........n if necessary.......i will stop on9 for a while............so that i can concentrate on my studies.......today....i oso not feeling well............today during......i go tuition that time........i almost fall into the drain........when a lorry juz turn suddenly......luckily i managed to jump off the bicycle on time.if not i can't imagine wat will happen to me lo.........GOD bless..!!!

Disappointing.......Sad.....

Oo....i am so disappointing of myself...it is already the end of the year since PMR is juz one week left.....Why i feel so DIFFERENT....??? Last year, during these period of time....i seem working and struggling very hard for my PMR. But me now is only "struggling very hard" to online, msning and oso watching television non-stop until i "burn the midnight oil".......ppl burn their midnight oil for studying but...........for me juz doing all these rubbish.....WHY???? WHAT IS MY PROBLEMS??? actually i know that i am very lazy and i always like to online without time management....but i really can't help with my bad and terrible attitude.....i always promise myself to study and do revision on the topic which i am weak in...BUT........dunno why my promise cannot last for even 2 weeks ....Once i saw the computer, i will definitely go and switched it on and started to online....i am so addicted to it now....How can i cure my "sickness" ??? WHAT SHOULD I DO??? To add to that, i am very disappointed with my frenz.......i feel very sad........and extremely sad......Yugathes often asked me whether i hav found my true frenz or not.....? i think in all my school times.....i won't find my true frenz......so i hav decided to give up......looking forward for my true frenz....Actually i oso dun wan to giv up but....wat can i do?? Maybe i really dunno wat is friendship all abt?? or mayb there's something wrong with my attitudes.....but i really cannot do anything now..!!! if they are really my true frenz, they should undestand me and guide me to the correct way.....but they DID'T...??? they didn't try to understand me.....or even wanted to know more abt me.....!! Yugathes got ask me before why i dun like tell my frenz my problems?? Let me tell you why .....i dun like to share my problems with my frenz..!! this is because i feel that about all my frenz cannot be trusted..........if i tell them something......they sure will tell to others....i dun hav trust in anyone including myself !!! maybe because i like to "pendamkan" all my feelings...that's why i always feel sad and depress..!! ok.....watever la....cuz until i finish my form 5 oso ......i won't find the person who i can trust...then .....juz forget abt it lo.....LEAVE me ALONE!!!!LONELY YEE!!!!!!!!!!!!

bOriNg or waT....???

Today is the 21st of september 2007......today my frenz are going to celebrate their bufday.....together....they r consists of YY, MC, CY n CH too.......Today morning........i was very sleepy in school during the last period......n oso during my tuition time........feeling so tired..........but sure la..i can't sleep during tuition time..........it'll be very no manners.............but then when i go for account tuition.........i bcum so "sedar" liao......wakaka.....so funny la..............but sad la.....cuz i can't do one of the questions......but after tuition i oso not yet try the question back........i go take back my computer which i take it to format yesterday.....i am so glad that my computer was ok now.......huh.....Then i go on9 until 7.30.....then oli off9 cuz i hav to take my dinner n my shower too before i go to the party.......then time that i paling benci is.........why ppl like to cum not on time ge??? ppl aredi say cum at 8.00 but they all cum at 8.45.....haiz............very disappointed la.....but nvm cuz it is not my bufday la.............i won't care so much abt it......during the party was on..........wat i observed is that the whole group of us seem are divided into many gang.......huh!!!! Luckily....hui xin n the gang din cum..........if not i sure they will oli sit with their group.........n oli chat with their gang oli........n definitely will not hav so much fun la......then..........later at abt 10 sumthing.....they "potong" de cake lo....they all play very "din".......they throw the cream to each others la.........n spray the "things" to each others lo.....so we all bcum very dirty liao....lo...but me...luckily din get so much so the cream.....as i hide myself liao....but that naughty ai nee n jia xin......throw that cream at me....when i am not alert that time.......so bad la.....then go to imax to on9 lo.....chat a while then go home liao.......now i wanna go for a shower again.........n hav a sweet sleep....n dream too......wakaka

that words hurt me...!!!

Today as usual...i go to school at around 7.15am......there's a ceremony to bless all the form 3 students.....seem very grand la the ceremony.......because of that ceremony....i hav to miss my chemistry period.....so bad la.......during the ceremony...i keep on sneezing.....wat a terrible morning i hav.....after that.....we all went back to class lo..........quite sleepy de.....but i keep on doing my add maths questions......so geram when i can't solve that particular question.....then i went to ask chun hung to help me solve that problem.....then later go recess lo......after having ur meal.....we went to the lobby.....n i ask YY abt the BP......then XXX say y i so care abt the party.....as that party is not mine BP party.....that time...i aredi feel that the words hurt me....then later i went back to class....n i went to take back my add maths book.....n oso my pencil.....that time XXX2 n XXX3......oso say something that hurt my feelings......i dun care whether wat they think.....but wat they say really made me feel sad.....i feel so sad......n i rasa diri saya telah dipinggirkan.....so i juz go back to my place n do my work silently......i aredi dun care how ppl think abt me.......!!! WHY should i care abt how ppl think abt me??? THEY never care abt my feeling.......!!!! haiz...frenz??? for wat FRENZ are???.......so i hav made up my mind that i won't care how they plan their party....who are they going to invite.....n watever it is la..... i will oli show myself on this friday.....i fed up with all of them aredi..........but i noe there is still some of them who will care abt me ge....juz like SY....she cum over to me....n ask why am i looking so sad.....n she oso ask me to smile la.......i feel that......i am very weird la........ppl if din get enough sleep...sure will feel tired the next day..but i didn't....i will feel tired if i get enough sleep....juz like yesterday....i sleep at 10.00....but today......i am extremely tired de....dun know wat de problems with me......

oO...i tHinK i aM haviNg inSomNia.....

oMg.....i can't sleep la tis few days.......although..it's aredi 3pm...4pm...or even 5pm....i still can't sleep....i feel so....!!??......dunnoe how to describe that feelings....but why suddenly i hav such a weird habit.......juz like yesterday.......i oli sleep for.....abt 1 hours...but actually i am not tired at all during i when to bed....but juz because my mum scold me....then i went back to my room...and then continue doing my stuff all.....but later....i think i should rest for a while....if not i sure will sleep in the class..but when i go school that time.......i still feel very fresh......i din even sleep in the class.............but the matter with me......is that i will juz feel tired during the evening....that's the time i go for sleep........what can i do????? i think it is becoming more serious each day.....cuz on monday....i sleep at 3......then on tuesday......i sleep at 5......hope that today....i can sleep earlier le.....i am very tension tis few days......many projects that i havto hand out.....add maths..... ULBS.....tuition de homeworks.....school homeworks....n i feel that the final exam is juz around the corner..........and i seem really....UNPREPARED.......so wat should i do????? almost every night..........i am thinking abt this matter............but i really can't help with it..........n my friends all are having "cold war".........wonder when would they stop the "war".......actually wat i hate abt is that tis coming sun....there'll be a treasure hunt.....in my group.......ky n ws......they hav quarrel n until now oso haven't talk with each other......so i dun wan they treat me as a medium to transfer msg........i feel that if u wan to talk to him or her.........why u wan me to help u to sampaikan semula....le.......i HATE ALL tis...........TERRIBLE

a vEry coMpLiCated fEeLiNg

Today morning.....is really a bad day for me.....!!! Yesterday....i sleep very early....then today at 4 sumthing....wake up jor...cuz feeling so cold....but then me so lazy sure i continue sleeping la......then at 6...wake up n feel that my right eye "bengkang" jor.....feeling so terrible la....one eye smaller jo.....since my eye "bengkang" liao.....i really dun hav mood.....then i packed up all my books and wait for my turn to bath...after that....i put some medicine to my eye....after that...abt 7.15am ....go skul......really no mood la.....after the assembly....go back to class lo....then we were inform that today no physics class....so i start to do my add math exercise lo.....then that kah yan went to ask for money....as me really dun hav money...so i say i din bring lo....she say in a quite high tone..."i aredi told u yesterday ge ma...." i dun like ppl rushing me to pay...if i got money sure i am going to pay you....la....but i still remember during the beginning of the year ....when i collect money for de library....she oso say like tat to me ge la....then she like marah jo tim.... but today....since my eye is not feeling comfortable...and my mood really bad that time.....i juz dun wan talk to her jo......i very angry with her ar......

this few days...very fan la.....cuz kah yan and yoke yin marah liao....wai sam n the gang.......cuz a small matter....why they all so "kecil hati" ge.....terrible...betul la....so today..wai sam....ask me to ask kah yan whether.....she still wanna join with her during the treassure hunt.....??? then we all go to the lab to watch movie....there...yoke yin and kah yan are playing calculator sms....i juz concentrate on my add maths oli.....while they all watch movie....but as i hear all of them laughing so happy...i watch that movie a while....it's really funny la....after physics period ended....we all go back to class.....then later kah yan send me a sms with her calculator....she ask me to tell wai sam that wai sam still owe her a exercise book.....i feel bad la.....i dun like being treated as a medium to transfer information from one's mouth to another.....i hate to do tis...furthermore i am still angry with her.....later i told wai sam abt the things.....so juz after recess.....wai sam giv me a new exercise book..n ask me to giv back to her...Why they are so funny?......cuz a little problem....they angry liao...each other....then when gud liao....bukan main rapatnya mereka......cannot stand it anymore......

my eye is feeling better now...not so "bengkang"...liao....today really feel so sorry la....if i got show my unhappy face to all my frens...or even not saying a "hi"...to u all guys.....SORRY la...cuz me today really not happy la.......

rain....rain.....and rain......once again i am getting wet......when i go tuition that time.......i really jealous la...to those who got parents...who fetch them to tuition.....after all my tuition......i go home and on9 until now....juz now chat wit hui xin.....i "listen" to wat she write about all her sweet memories....i am really jealous....with her as she got many sweet memories in st.john and oso with her friends.....but me......haiz....all my sweet memories...are slowly changing to bad memories......but honestly.......all my sweet memories are when i was in lower form.....b4 the "W" join scout.......i still remember that time....i first join scout....my first day..of entering scout is that i learned kawad...then later ....i n 4 others girls n a group of boys.....when for the ujian lencana usaha..........i really enjoy that moments.....very happy.....then after the usaha camp....hing wai ask me to join all the boys to go for maju camp......Wow....!! i feel so proud la that time cuz....me one gurl....lead all the boys.....hehe....teringat pun dah gembira....hehe!!!! that time i really like SCOUT very very much............going camp.....go scout house....go gathering....having activities in skul and many more......really happy...la

form 2 is the year where we all done sth really wrong......which is kicked hing wai out of SCOUt....cuz "they" all making report on wat hav hing wai done........that year is really bad.....but hing wai is really nice person as she still help me, chun hung and man heng on the preparations to the Jaya camp........in the camp....we oso feel so lucky as irene n the acs senior are there....they help us a lot in building our "khemah"....form 3....i think is my happiest year ever......as this year...we are having our camp in skul....for the first time.....me as the assistant secretary tim....enjoy those time...riding on chai teng "ego" scooter....go trace for the track...of the pengembara......go meeting...at chun hung house......playing together.....during "halangan komando"....so fun.....but all these are going to end ge la......and i won't find back the happiness forever......cuz of the presence of "W".....that's all for today.......i think..cuz i wanna go sleep liao....
friendship?....how can i find true friendship??......will i be going to miss my school times after my form 5??? really dun noe la....but actually there's nothing for me to miss about....so ntg la...ok la....really hav to stop jor....gud night.....god bless me......n my frenz